There we go again, it’s a new year!

January 3rd, 2010

Every year it’s the same story; you think about the past year and you fantasize about what you expect the new year to be. It’s a good thing people don’t do this every day, week or month, because it will be a lot to blog about!

But here we go, last year, 2009. It doesn’t really feel like a year, it went by too fast. But it was a year of discovering new things, of not to be scared, a year of realizing that I’m getting older. And also, a very busy year!

Last year, I left my employments agency to work at a housing corporation. It was fun! They merged in 2008, so there was a lot to do for me and my colleague. Our bosses had and still have a very busy schedule, sometimes we don’t get the chance to speak with them for a couple of weeks. Except when they are “running” to their next meetings. Something that could be very frustrating… you simply cannot work for a shadow. And that’s why I am leaving again, at the end of February.

Last year was also the year of HAR2009. I know, I forgot to write a blog about it when we came back, but that’s because things changed a lot in August. The preparation of HAR2009 was a real mission. Everyone had their own part to organize. Me and my team were responsible for the InfoHelpDesk. I actually still can’t believe I joined the organisation, but being a part of it and being there during the event was amazing!!

Unfortunately, it was a bit too amazing, because a week after the event, my boyfriend needed to go the hospital. He wore himself out… A lot of things changed, our busy lives turned into a cocooning one, of staying at home and not to be able to go everywhere anymore. It needed a lot of adjustment.

But that gave me time for Hosting community Soleus. I am a part of the community since February, the chairman was also a part of my InfoHelpDesk-team at HAR2009. But now I could do more, and stepped up as the Secretary of the Board. Our community exist two years (we closed the year with 113 members), but now that we are legalizing it really is a busy job. Unfortunately, we don’t have a treasurer anymore, so that task is also mine at the moment.

At home things changed too. After HAR2009 we decided to really start living together, and that meant that we also needed to move his cats to my apartment. Not too exciting? Well, I already had four cats! Six cats in a tiny apartment seems to be a bit too much. But luckily for us it turned out very well! Two of the cats still growl at each other a lot, but most of the time that’s the only thing they do.

And yes, this is also the year in which I realized that I’m getting older. I don’t know why, but I feel older, more mature. And at the same time, not mature enough. I realize that I still have a lot to learn, a lot to experience, but at almost 25, I also realize that I still have a long time left to do all that.

So what about 2010? I don’t know yet. I have learned planning and expecting things doesn’t work, so I wont do that. I’ll just tell you about it next year!

Happy Holiday!

December 24th, 2009

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An ode to my favorite cardigan

December 11th, 2009

I normally don’t care about clothing. I don’t like shopping, or spending a lot of money on it. I don’t care about the rules of fashion. I believe that you look good when you feel good and that’s not about what others think. But I have one cardigan, which means a lot to me.

It reminds me of falling in love and being spontaneous. And of my first real vacation outside of my country. Berlin, in which I could really experience the fighting spirit of being free. A feeling I’ve been searching for a long time.

Besides that, it really is a comfortable cardigan. It’s long enough to cover my back, with a nice high but loose collar so I won’t feel suffocated. It has one of my favourite colours, deep purple. It’s warm and it has the perfect pockets to keep my things in. And I can also wear it as an autumn or spring jacket.

But today I ruined it. I bought a new bottle of chloride and when I came home it apparently leaked and spilled some of the chloride on my cardigan which now has a couple of big pink spots on it.

So today I am a woman, who is sad about saying goodbye to her favourite clothing piece.

Cleaning out the house

October 16th, 2009

A couple of years ago, I thought I would move out of my house to live together with my former boyfriend, so I packed all my belongings into a lot of boxes and stored them in my bedroom. Not long after that, I realized I didn’t want to leave my house and the home I made of it, but the boxes are still standing there.

Because I live together for almost a year now and r3boot his things also need to fit in this tiny house, I decided to clean out the house and unpack all of those boxes today.

I have found a lot of sentimental things, like cards and letters, but also old tapes, some of those ‘made’ by myself. I even found old books I liked to read, an agenda from going to school and some jewellery, like the ring my first boyfriend gave me.

A lot of memories are packed in those boxes, but now it’s time to make room for new adventures and more memories. Looking back into the past is fun for an hour or so, but you are living today. Not yesterday , not tomorrow, only today.

Stuck

October 7th, 2009

Sometimes you’re having fun with one thing, and you are trying to have fun with another thing, but it just doesn’t match… Should you pick the one over the other? Or just keep on trying to have fun with both? Hoping that some day, it doesn’t matter if you’re having fun with one thing or the other thing?