Lots of catching up to do… with myself!

One of my goals for 2019 was to write more. This could be in a journal, the blog, short stories, letters or something work-related. It isn’t consistent yet, but writing is being done occaisionally. After a writing block of a couple of years this has been something my soul needed a lot. I’m particularly enjoying penpalling again. Since that’s a slow way to write, it is a forfilling way to get back to words.

Another thing to catch up to now that I’m more used to my medical diet is my homelife. Yes, I’ve spend many many hours there the last couple of years, but oh boy! I’ve certainly let things go big time! To get back into the routine of cleaning again I am using parts of the Flylady system. It helps me to know and feel that “things didn’t get this way in one day, so it cannot be fixed in one day either” and to not burnout but to do things in small steps without feeling guilty. Sometimes that means just 15mins a day or only to do the dishes. After a short month I can already notice the difference! And I trust myself to be able to continue my newfound routines and expand them too.

And of course there is the garden. My beautiful veggie plot. Last year I totally gave up. Things didn’t work out early in the year and at the end of May I just called it quits and didn’t return untill October. This year has been so different already even my plot neighbours notice that I’m around more. In another week or two I can probably eat several meals a week from my garden again!

I feel like I am slowly getting back to me again. By the end of the year I’ll be back completely and ready to finally follow my dream and go back to school! More on that in a next post. ;-)

This should have been written on a typewriter

The Viola massacre of May 15th

The tiny black ants are living happily in the strawberry bed. This bed is much nicer than the ones surrounding it. It has a nice loose soil, and it is covered with leaves and bark chippings. The strawberries are in full bloom and inbetween violas are growing. The ants have plenty of shade, and when the bees accidentily drop their packages, the ants have a nice and easy meal to find!

The bed across the path also has plenty of nice food. This is where the broad beans are growing. And as they like it best, it is covered in blackfly aphids. The ants are working their hardest to keep them happy so they can harvest the honeydew the aphids produce. The sweet sticky stuff is a favorite food for ants, who also take it back to feed larvae.

The weather is becoming better and better every day. At night it’s still cold, but it’s not freezing anymore. Today has been a particulary dry day, such as yesterday and the day before. That night there was still a little frost. But it didn’t harm the ants. It will probably rain soon again.

When the ants are busy carying the honeydew in and the sand stones out they notice the earth is shaking up. It seems like some of these giants is coming. This happens a lot but there is usually no reason to alarm. Their bed is next to a couple of busy paths. But this time there is an extra heavy thump. Some of the ants see a large shadow coming down, something is being put down on them!

The ants run for cover and try to protect their nest by quickly cleaning up the fallen sand stones which came loose after the big thump. They run and carry and run and carry some more. Suddenly a large piece of their main tunnel collapses. What is happening?! Their path to the next tunnel also gets blocked. Luckily they have plenty of them around, even though some are just for air circulation.

A couple of ants have hid themselves under one of the violas. But then it is gone and the earth around them collapses and gets shifted around. Now they finally understand. That big giant is pulling at the violas! Some of the ants start to panick, their queen is at risk of being collapsed and without her, they have no purpose anymore. They quickly get into action and start moving the queen and her offspring to a save spot. They keep moving them around until everything seems calm again. Luckily she made it.

Just when the ants think it’s okay again to go back and rebuild their nest, a new thump appears. And another. And another. These are tiny thumps, which do make things shake but not as ridiculous as before. A couple of ants get curious and come outside of the nest to check things out. Whoa! There’s another thump. And right when the ant wanted to move there is a bark chipping in front of it. That wasn’t there before. And another. And another. The big giant is throwing them all around them!

Finally the big giant leaves and the ants can rebuild their nest and harvest their honeydew again. A lot of them were lost in the collapsed tunnels. And some of them got squashed underneath the bark. The remaining ants carry them away from the nest and continue their own gardening.